myself

sometimes i feel lonely. laughing and happy people around me. family, friends, strangers. They`re happy and having fun. i am asking myself if they really are happy or if they are just faking a smile. if they are broken inside and just fake a smile to fit into our society. if they are just broken and vapid, and are godamn good actors. they don’t speak about their demons inside and about the things that make them break because nobody would understand them. they would say „it`s going to be better soon“ or „i know how you feel“. but they don’t know how you feel and it won’t be better soon. it`s only going to be worse. with every breath you take. every step you take. every beat of your heart.

if they are people like me.